Well, not issues.
For the last few months I've been blessed with the abillity to do overtime, at double time pay, for 5 hours a week. That has been a two-edged sword - I've not seen my children for a long time. But I've been able to absorb the hot water drama, pay some other unexpected bills and still keep our heads above water.
Knowing, as I did that the overtime was going to be coming to a halt shortly, I applied for a full time position, a step to the side of the role that i am in currently.
I didn't get it.
Next week, all overtime is stopped. I will be down 20 hours a fortnight in my pay. This is not a good thing.
Should I go and find another job? Is it time to move on from there altogether? Or should I change my hours around if it's at all possible?
I don't really know what to do. My studio is getting further and further away though.
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
Friday, April 8, 2011
this week...
I've been feeling very flat. Very - down, I suppose.
Things have changed at work in ways that are making me feel... I dunno, it's a little hard to explain.
Just feel like I'm not supposed to be the kind of person that the job is making me be.
In the same vein, or perhaps not, I cannot leave the workplace. I just can't. I spent an entire day searching the job applications to see if there was something different out there that was, well, different. But I didn't find it.
I'm also feeling somewhat unsupported by those around me in my attempt to discover what the best course of action for me to take is right now. That's probably not helping.
Perhaps that's not true - not so much unsupported, but there's an element of unreality in the support I'm getting.
I can't make the same wage as I'm currently earning by going to work as a casual dishwasher.
Our household cannot survive on less than I'm currently earning.
The other earning member here cannot go and earn more to make up the difference.
Those are the facts.
Apparently the facts are destined to continually get in the way of what I wish I could do - which is just knit, right now.
I just want to sit and quietly knit. Maybe spin a bit. Then knit some more. Card up some lovely art batts, dye up some amazing fibres, and knit a bit more.
Maybe I just need a holiday.
Things have changed at work in ways that are making me feel... I dunno, it's a little hard to explain.
Just feel like I'm not supposed to be the kind of person that the job is making me be.
In the same vein, or perhaps not, I cannot leave the workplace. I just can't. I spent an entire day searching the job applications to see if there was something different out there that was, well, different. But I didn't find it.
I'm also feeling somewhat unsupported by those around me in my attempt to discover what the best course of action for me to take is right now. That's probably not helping.
Perhaps that's not true - not so much unsupported, but there's an element of unreality in the support I'm getting.
I can't make the same wage as I'm currently earning by going to work as a casual dishwasher.
Our household cannot survive on less than I'm currently earning.
The other earning member here cannot go and earn more to make up the difference.
Those are the facts.
Apparently the facts are destined to continually get in the way of what I wish I could do - which is just knit, right now.
I just want to sit and quietly knit. Maybe spin a bit. Then knit some more. Card up some lovely art batts, dye up some amazing fibres, and knit a bit more.
Maybe I just need a holiday.
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